This is the story of Jamin

Lately, i've just been doubting myself soo much...i dont even know y...I guess being sooo far away from home has made me do some self discovery...Honestly, now, i just dont know exactly who i am...on da inside i mean...

Sometimes, i feel like i'm selfish...Sometimes, maybe too sensitive...Maybe even too dependant on other ppl...Wat's worst is dat sometimes dat i'm just plain boring and dat i dont have a personality...I've just had sooo many insecurities dat i dont even know myself anymore...

Wat's worst is dat i'm all da way here and da only person i can talk to about al this and not judge me lives all da way back in k.l....I know there are other ppl i can talk to but somehow, its just difficult...I guess there's just no trust yet...I just have no trust towards anybody rite now...So, if u're wondering y i'm not telling any of u guys, its just coz i can't...yet...i dont trust ppl easily...

I realise, dat i have sooo many bad qualities in me dat i dont know wat's good anymore...I know i need to change, but i dont know how...Aiyoooooo....My mind is just soo messed up lah...

Ppl dat are always around me would notice dat i've been distant lately...Dat's coz i just cant deal with all da drama anymore...I do try my best but if i cant, im terribly sorry...Since i've been here, i've totally lost my focus and i cant afford to loose focus on wat i'm doing...So, i'm hoping u'll let me do it by myself...

I feel like i'm talking crap addy..hahaha...emo sial my post dis time...sowwyyy...hehehe...

eh, i just realised something, everytime i'm alone at home, my posts become soo emo...huhuhh...

Chiows!