Inderal...

Last night was da first night in probably years dat i had to force myself to sleep before 11pm...was too tired to do anything...slept on da floor for da first hr...had a bad back...then had a phone call...answered dat and jumped on da bed to sleep properly...

da whole time, my heart was pumping soooo fast that i could hear it soo loud...it wouldnt stop! was trying to sleep with dat stuupid heartbeat for an hr...finaly decided to get up to get 20mg of inderal...a hr later my heart was still going at it...damnn!! got up at took another dose of inderal...i think i'm immune to inderal ady...this hasnt happened in awhile so iguss da thyroid rpoblem is back! haiihhh...time to see da doc again...

finally fell asleep at 2 am...da sleeping early trial was a failure...so, next time, i'm just gonna let myself get too sleepy to do anything else...

Today, all i did was vacuum my room...my assignments are stacking and yet i cant bring myself to get to them...MALAS!

I'm waiting for all my fav tv shows to come back for the new season...CANT WAIT!!! and then of coz there's the torture of waiting for new moon..haha...

can things be worse?

I'm having a panic attack! y? i dunno y...u tell me y...

I'm watching ER and my mind's running like crazy...It mite be da lack of sleep for da past 2-3 weeks. It mite also be da fact that i've been sitting at this bloody computer for da past 3 days looking at numbers on the screen. It doesnt help dat i lost my usb drive dat has all my assignments in it...dat just mad my week!

Then, after submitting the assignment i found out i had too many pages and da lecturer wont read anything more than 20 pages....how da hell did i miss dat? to mae things worse, i found out that my last 5 pages were a mess coz da allignment of da page got screwed...

All that, combined with no human interaction, cannot makan becouse puasa, and lack of sleep makes me angry!!! Then, i found out dat raya is this weekend! i thought it was freakin next week...i have no idea...lost track of time...puasa this year felt soo short...

And, i miss my frens in da city...BAD....havent talked to fah in da longest time...miss my family...miss my cat...miss my mom's cooking....i miss a good nite sleep wihtout da same dream...all dat stuff dat i miss, makes me even more angry, pissed off to da max!!!

Then, i'm also thnking of the 4 major assignments due soon...havent started on any of them...Its gonna be a rough few weeks till after exams...haaiihhh...i feel like screaming, crying, hitting something all at da same time....

its buka time so i'm gonna go...

Sleepless...

Was sleepy 5 hours ago...so i was able to sleep...then, at 3am, i woke up...its like my brain wont let me go there...coz it knows i'm afraid of it...those dreams i've been having totally spooked my mind...Its a dream of reality...it happened and to relive it almost every night means that i will never let go of it...havent had those dreams in awhile...no idea why it's come back...maybe it was to remind me that it happened and that i should never forget it...haiihhh...it'll be the one thing in my life that will keep me from being totally happy...no matter how succesful i'll be or how happy i'll be, its da one shame i'll have to carry...

Dammnnn!!!

My god!!! How hot are these pics?! Someone saved my horrible day by sending these pics of the new moon official posters...Thanks nadia!!

How is it dat an 18 year old boy has dat kind of body...damnnn!!! i'm sweatinggg...

Jamin takde laa totally obsessed with new moon but damn these pics are heavenly....now i feel like reading da book again...No Jamin! Do assignment jamin!! NO!!

AAARRGGHHH!!!!

I'm pissed pissed pissed pissed pissed!!! Hah!

Dont ask me y...i'll give u a whole list!

Bullshit mannn...this is shit...

Nothin new....boringgg....

Like my title says...nothing new...been home trying to finish up work...TRYING...

Classes are going to start on mondayyyy...haiihhh...good thing lah...gonna go nuts being home this long...

Nothing worth blogging bout so i'm gonna have an early sahur and try to sleep...havent had a proper sleeping cycle in 2 weeks...

goodnight and selamat bersahur ppl :-)

My thoughts...

I'm so bloody bored...cant bring myself to finish up my assignments so i've been lounging around on my bed DA WHOLE DAYYY...boleh jadi gilee tau macam ni...malas nak tulis a proper blog, so here goes...in random order k...since u guys think i'm soo random kan...haha...

1) bosan nak mampos kat bundoora ni...

2) I wanna meet my frens in da city but i'm lazy to go...

3) Cant wait for aliaa to come back...Sunday babeyhh!!

4) Been thinking alot of ehem ehem lately...still not forgotten...

5) Love those pics for the memories and hate them for reminding me of wat could have been...

6) Hopes arifah is alright...love u babes...

7) Misses eryna alia...may u rest in peace...al-fatihah...

8) Misses her family...and her cat...

9) hates uni this sem...i dont know shit...blurrr...

10) Wishes that person was never in my life...thanks for ruining it for me...

11) Wishes she would call once in awhile...i know he would love to hear from u...so would i...

12) Misses mun :(

13) Suddenly thought...i've never felt that kind of happiness...

14) Has a new found interest in malay songs..haha...

15) Wishes farhah was 5 mins away...

16) Is longginggg sooo bad to play golf...

17) Esok can puasa ady...yeayy? haha..

18) Cant wait for all my fav show to start again...yeayyyy!!!

19) Nak mummy :'(

20) Misses tok mak...should give her a call soon...

21) Had a dream of tok ayah a few nights ago...love u tok ayah...miss u too...

22) suddenly motivated to do well this sem...but malas buat assignment...haha...

23) I'm such a loner...

24) Suppose to masak butter chicken for dinner...but malas and not hungry...

25) JA!!! i know your readingggg!!! hahaha...miss u monyekk...love u long timeee!!

26) Nak balik puasa in malaysia!!!

27) Thanking nadia for making her laugh everyday with her videos...pandai kau berlakon eh...haha...klakar sioottt...

28) I still remember tok ayah's face very clearly...its like he's infront of me smoking his ciggarette...

29) Has 2 assignments due next week and 4 more due i dunno when...shyte!!!

30) Needs to cut her fingernails...

31) Loves ER...

32) Can't wait for new moon in nov!!

33) Wants a car...NOW!!! Next sem is not good enuf daddy...plsss....

34) i'm sooo spoilt...haha

35) Tak jadi pindah back to da city kot...malas...will most probably stay in bundoora...

36) Should have gone running just now...daymmm...

37) Kaki aku sakit lagi...babiii...dat's y i need a carrrr...huhu...

38) Why da hell did i need a security check to post a comment on my on wall kat facebook?

weirddd...

39) Is nervous about her internship...

40) Cant wait to graduate next year...

41) Cant wait for da summer holsss...see u guys soon!!!

42) Panjangnya list aku.

43) Waiting to watch the show tonite...weehooo...

44) Wishes she could dance...wait...maybe i can...never tried it...

45) Hopes one day her dad will change...

46) Hopes all is well at home without bibik...

47) Dah 5 hari aku terperuk dalam bilik ni...gileee...

48) Baby ricky sure dah besar...cant wait to see him!!

49) Hopes mummy is ok...

50) U think u know me? think again :p

Till next time!!

xxx

Jamin