Sorry's da hardesst word?

I dont think many ppl realise how hard it is to live wif someone who's self-centered, and just doesnt care bout anyone else...Its emotional abuse...It chips u off litle by little...

My dad told me to pick him up from city square at 4...I called b4 i left and he didnt pick up da phone...I left anyways thinking dat if i'm late he'll scream at me...I reached at 4 and called like 4 times and he didnt pick up...I waited and waited till 4.30 and still no sign of him and phone dia tak angkat...Bare in mind dat i have finals esok and still need to study...I called farhah and was whining to her like nuts...Screaming my lungs offf to her...Sorry farhah, nyways, thanks 4 listening...

I called my mom complaining...Mmg stress gile...I was about to burst wif tears ady...I was just sooo mad dat he couldnt even call to tell me dat he was gonna be late...5 o'clock, still i cant call him, he pon didnt call me...I was already going nuts...Its, exam stress, my laptop kene virus stress, then waiting 4 him and cannot study stress...All in one..I burst to tears on da phone wif my mom...

At one point, my mom kata, balik jelah...I was just thinking dat how could my dad do this, ikut senang dia je...He doesnt give a damn if i have exam esok...All he cares is what's easier 4 him...Masuk kreta, kluar kreta tu je keje dia...I yang bawak kreta...Get a bloody driver laaa...

So, i texted my dad saying dat ive called him a million times and have waited for an hour...i'm gonna go back coz i have exam esok and nak study...I have no time 4 dis...

I left but tried giving him a call 4 like da 100th time...Finally, he picked up...He said he's not done yet and asked me to wait for a few more minutes...I was just about to scream my ass off to him...But, sabar....

In da car, he said stuff which of course, knowing him, i expected it...He said he was suppose to give me a call first..Padahal he asked me to be there by 4...Tak larat nak gaduh, i just kept quiet...Malas nak layan...

Da worst part is dat, he didnt even say sorry 4 not calling, for making me wait...But da actual fact is, its not just dis dat makes me pissed and upset, its a lot more other stuff as well...This is just icing on da cake...I was tahaning from crying in da car...He didnt say anything else except to defend himself...I went in my room and just let everthing out...This is not how i'm suppose to feel 1 day b4 my exam...

Is it soooo hard to say sorry to your own daughter? For once, just say it lah...Not everything is about u!! Everyone in da hs is feddup but nobody dares to say anything...I'm writing it here coz even i dont dare saying it outloud...

Call it whatever u want, overeacting or whatever...Da thing is u dont know what its like to live wif such a person...Everything has to be his way, he controls everythin...I'm just sooo tired of all this!!! I cant wait to leave da hs...

U may not understand but its ok...I'm just sharing for da sake of me...Just need to get it out...