This is the story of Jamin

Da last time i felt this way was when my parents left for malaysia....I cried more than once today...and now my kepala sakit...my mata sakit...semua laa...I thought crying in da morning was enough addy...I thoughtt since i already went out and did some retail therapy, things would get better...It actually got worse...hahaha..more crying at nite...Just now, i was trying to study...Da book je was infront of me...My mind was totally in a different place...

I called my mom and we talked...I poured out everything i was feeling...Of course, my air mata was pouring like rain...hahaha...I havent really talked to my mom for a while...I mean, i talk to her but I never tell her my problems...Talking to her just now reminded me of how good it feels like to just talk to her....I realise that in this whole world, she's da only person i can talk to...I was talking to her and I felt like she really knew me...She knows more about me than i thought she would...

I just need to start talking to her more since i just have nobody here to talk to...Ppl do not knoe how it feels to be in a diff country and be totally alone...All da problems u face and u have totally nobody to talk to...It just hit me dat i trust ppl too much till now, i feel like i cant trust anyone nymore...

Now, I just feel like i cant focus on my studies nymore...I'm soo much more worried bout other things...I mean, i knoe dat is bad, but i cant help it...I cant help feeling this way...And...It totally doesnt help dat I have a final paper on friday!!! Dat's something i should be worried bout but no matter how much i worry, all i can think of is da things dat have been in my mind for da past week...Dont even ask me wat it is...Only I will know...hahaha...dat's a secret...

Nyways, I actually cannot wait to balik k.l...It doesnt matter how sekejap it is...I just cant wait to take a break from MELBOURNE...As much fun as it is here...It just aint da same as home...