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I was sooo stupid to think dat things would be soo much better here in melbourne!!! It's worst!! I feel everything here...Anger, hurt, everything!!! It doesnt help dat da only ppl i can talk to are back in K.L...

Never in my life would i imagine feeling this way again...I cant even cry nymore...No more tears...hehehe...When i do cry, its to my mom or alone sometimes even wif my hsmate...It's just reached a point where i dont give a fuck nymore!!! I'm sooo tired of thinking bout da small little things...I'm soo tired of trying to fit in here...I'm soo tired of everything here...I just want dat break in june sooo badly...

I've been soo numb dat i feel like crying now but cant cry nymore...There hasnt been a day since...erm...maybe 2 weeks ago dat i havent felt like crying...Sometimes, i just tahan from morning and burst out b4 i go to sleep...It's actually been a routine actually...hahaha...

Dont ask me wat's wrong...everything is wrong...Da fact dat ppl are not telling me things are wrong...Da fact dat i'm soo far away from my family is wrong...Da fact dat i'm not myself here is soooo wrong...Da fact dat i cant seem to fit in here is wrong...Wat's even more wrong is dat i dont like it here...

Only sooo little ppl know how horrible it feels when this is how u feel...Everyday is a struggle...Hopefully, tomorrow will be better than tomorrow...HAHAHA...i doubt it will...

Tomorrow is bridge building day!!! U think dat's fun? hahaha...It's more stressfull then anything...